I sometimes wish the thought of God being right here right now being more than a hope, more than a struggling belief inside me, more than an everyday need for conviction. Maybe the fact that a personal relationship is possible, doesn’t necessary first of all make him more wonderful, but makes my expectations and demands more…. expecting! If it where that all he did was sit up there, fine… no argue he just is, but now when a dialog is possible and a void is all that’s coming back, am I to rely on hope alone?

But Bob you ain’t listening good enough, or your heart ain’t clean enough… ! hmm well God is God and even if a wall would be between us … wouldn’t he… ah! I am sure he’s present. God if youre out there or read my blog, please just let me know. Amen